i realize that i'm hopelessly out of depth in my posts.

yes, a blog is like a diary, where you keep your record of stuff that's been happening, memorable events and so on. but essentially, what use is that? maybe we can come back one day and happily recall the past, but that's all we can do. {and at any rate, it's better to look forward than to continually stagnate in the memories of the past} in essence, blogging as an outlet for the recording of events is, as the critics put it, a total waste of time.

perhaps we're just looking at the surfaces of our existence not because we can't, or don't bother, to delve deeper inside, but it's more of whether you have the courage and guts to unbottle it all. granted, it's not exactly sound to just put all your emotions out there under the public's scrutiny, but i guess it's how you're going to open up, and be frank about stuff. people may label you as "controversial" or something to that effect, but at least, you've made your stand on something, had your voice heard, and i'd feel you've done a lot more than the people who label, because at least you show that you have a mind, unlike them who just go around poking in people's thoughts and finding faults with them. {of course, i'm not saying we shouldn't exercise any self-restraint on the things we talk about. at the end of the day, we still have to think about others, like it or not. it's just a matter of how much you want to push your point, and how much you want to accomodate the thoughts of others}

everything comes with a risk; it's just how much of that risk you want to take. {and haha, i'm taking a risk right now, commenting on the content of blogs, but i hope it's not particularly offending because c'mon, i'm not just saying that yours is pathetic and mine is awesome or something. at any rate, my posts are seriously deficient, content-wise.}

{wow, i've actually written so much and i haven't even gotten to the point of this post}

fine. so basically, today during our class exco meeting with our sec1 hoy, i was making a comment about our computer studies teacher (well, we did raise a few issues about the lessons, and ms m.ong will see what can be changed and improved) and went on about how she (....) during our lessons. and after i finished, someone told me that i was acting very much like a bimbo (y'know, it looks absolutely awful here. it just doesn't look good), using all the "like"s in my sentences.

so basically i was quite taken aback. after all, i didn't exactly agree with people who act that way, and now i'm actually starting to evolve into something like that?!

perhaps i've always taken the definition of, well, that to be really (for lack of a better word) flirtatious behaviour, where you wear your skirts really short, act like you're just fanatically obsessed with everything material, speak in that high-pitched, falsely sweet voice, and i guess the list goes on. fine, it's really all cliched and stereotypical, but that's how i've grown to see it. i never believed that using words like 'like' would fall under that. seriously, i thought it was just slang.

i don't know, but it seems that everyone's changing. no one's that boring, hardworking student that we've known before anymore, and even if they're still as studious, they manage to keep up with the trends, the styles, the everything. people vehemently deny that they're not really falling slave to trends and fashions, and well, that, but it seems closer to the truth if we take it as something perhaps all of us go through, some more pronounced than the rest. {well, half the people wear low socks nowadays, don't they.} so fine, i won't contradict myself, perhaps it's the same for me. but i hope i'll grow out of it somehow. (i think i will, at least. and anyway, i don't think i'm that deep into that yet)

alright, granted, some will be more mentally stolid than the people around them, less influenced by changes around them. come to think of it, you really need to be very sure, very believing in yourself to be able to stay resistant to all these external factors. to still be yourself when everyone's starting to evolve, to metamorphose. these are those who are truly strong at heart.

{most importantly, a note to the person who made the comment during the exco meeting: i'm not offended, angry or anything of that sort. it's just that your comments really prompted me to consider things more deeply, really think for myself. thankyou (:}

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loves music (almost strictly classical, hurhur & inclusive of faziolis!), literature (& also the sciences - no they are not in conflict), making hopelessly lame puns, laughter, white/milk chocolate, cheesecake, the world & the people in it. list not exhaustive, by the way.

wants the world to be filled with peace, joy and love, and also wants (perhaps a little more selfishly) to be happy, plus lead a life of purpose. that would be more than enough. (:

oh, and she likes embarking on her own 'free hugs!' campaigns after exams and the like; not really sure why. D: (at any rate, you can tell that she's random enough.)

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